Friday, May 7, 2010

It is well

It is well with my soul. That is one of my favorite, cry out, heal my heart hymns. "wanna hear it, here it go!" well here are the lyrics at least.

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.


It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.


My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!


For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.


But, Lord, ‘tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh trump of the angel! Oh voice of the Lord!
Blessèd hope, blessèd rest of my soul!


And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.


Here's a video link

There is an amazing story behind this song too. Look here.

I grew up listening to hymns in church. Music is how God helps me hear His voice, one of the ways He helps me heal, feel, understand, grow. I know I'm not alone in appreciating the blessing, beauty and magnificence that music, all kinds of genres and skill levels, is from our awesome God! I'm listening to the song list from one of my top 5 fav bloggers right now and being blessed by the fabulous, eclectic selection, all beautiful, inspiring, healing and moving.

I have been without words, so I haven't been able or even wanting to blog. So much has happened in the last month. So much sorrow has come that its hard to not feel paralyzed by it. When we grieve, its easy to get lost in it and angry about it and find ourselves overwhelmed and withdrawing in a scrambling, out of control way. (like when you see those scary/dramatic movies where the character is faced with that "monster" and they're knocked on their butts and backing away, trying to stand but can't get they're feet under them so their just scrambling backwards watching the thing that holds their fear with that panicked look in their eyes).

Reading my Bible, love, comfort and prayers of my friends and family and music is how I stand up and face that fear and sorrow and find peace in Christ when my heart is so broken.
His word says:

16Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. (1Thes. 5:16-18) NIV

2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does. (James 2:2-8) NIV

28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? Yahweh is the everlasting God, the Creator of the whole earth. He never grows faint or weary; there is no limit to His understanding. 29 He gives strength to the weary and strengthens the powerless. 30 Youths may faint and grow weary, and young men stumble and fall, 31 but those who trust in the LORD will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint.
(Isaiah 40:28-31) HCSB

I could go on and on with the comfort, wisdom and strength found in God's word. Psalm 118, all of Isaiah 40, Hebrews 11..........

my friends and family:
hug me, send me cards, ask me how i'm doing, tell me and show me they love me, make me smile and laugh and remember how blessed i am with them and I am not alone.

music like It is well, I bowed on my knees and cried holy, Heaven is my home (the duhks), I am (Nichole Nordeman) He knows my name (TCAA Worship Team), Safe in His arms (Phil Wickham), so many more.

Thank you Jesus for loving me unconditionally and finding me when I call you, even without words. I can say it is well, not because it is easy or painless, not because I'm strong but because in spite of my brokenness and loss, fear and frustration, I know

You love me,
You died for me,
You hear me and answer my prayers.
You created the universe and love and me.
You know and see all that I don't.
You hold the future.
There is no place I would rather be than the palm of Your hand, the center of Your will.
I can't understand it but I trust you.
I love you.
I am yours.
It is well.